Twenty five years ago is the date on my activation papers. I keep hearing The Forever War going through my head, although I've never read the book. It all started there, or maybe simply continued on. As WWII turned into every other conflict after, skirmishes and bloodbaths, police actions and colossal failures of diplomacy, with side slides into extremism and punching down on the most vulnerable.
Having escaped a very personal violence, this was my chance to find peace. I held on with both hands, without hope, finding joy only on the other side, in safe arms. Took me a very long time to trust. And let go of old hurts.
That is the only way forward. The only way to peace. Let the hurts heal, leave them alone, stop feeding the monsters. And take care of children. There is no excuse for being unkind to a child.
Today was as expected. Got in all my walking 10K steps, about 5 miles, at work. Hard, hard day. Ate at 1030, bought cheetos at about 4, just to make it through. Then, when I clocked out at 1738, took me until 1808 to get five minutes drive away - sporting event of some sort. The rest of the trip home, about 10 minutes, took the normal time.
Cats are both eating, drinking, and shitting, properly. Dylan and I have spent every day of the last 25 years together, or at least in contact on the rare occasions apart.
Photos tomorrow, I promise. It's been a week.
4 comments:
congratulations to the both of you. it's an accomplishment to stay together a long time in any case, but you have done it with love and kindness, and that is truly wonderful!
not feeding the monsters is key in life, isn't it? i'm so glad you found a safe and loving haven. happy silver anniversary (i had to look that up).
pc,
We are just so compatible. And we give each other reasons to be happy, to make the other one feel loved., and stay easy to be pleased ourselves. It's always been easy, though, like breathing clearly after a long bout of congestion. We are each other's relief, safe harbor, reward for dealing with all that is out there.
The time passes so quickly.
Silver anniversary, yeah I'd forgotten. He asked if we have to give each other something silver. Perhaps we'll exchange quarters. They have some silver in them, right? A little?
Congratulations to all of you - cats included. Obviously.
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