They never saw it coming from my side.
A mandatory meeting tomorrow, but new manager sent out the message that if we aren't working that day, we can just cover the material and complete the test. I've done MH modules for two decades. I stopped in to thank her, and she was nonchalant. I asked if she would think it weird if I kissed her, she shrugged, "sure." We both waved it off, and I now officially love her. She added she would want me for the fire safety, and maybe mock code.
Told her, I'm happy to come for fire safety. And I think it's always good to do mock codes, good refresher, know the people, the particular supplies. And good for those of us who have done a number of real codes to work with those who have not.
But MH? Nothing has changed, I know it all by heart, and we are at extremely low risk. Vast majority of our cases do not use any triggering agents, minuscule incidence in our patient population to start with, and current monitoring means we'd pick it up very early when it's easiest to reverse.
Noticing myself with worsening word-finding again. Not sure what is triggering my ptsd symptoms, so I need to quiet down and listen to the stuttering little voice. Feel like sucking my thumb... trunk.
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When the Great Monster strikes me, lately I've yearned for a cuddly toy, which I find extremely odd.
I like the little elephant, so maybe I'll make a cuddly like her.
Crow,
Apparently, young elephants suck their trunks like human children suck their thumbs. Self soothing gestures. We all need to have a safe place, so we can be brave. A soft and cuddly friend works wonders.
In my therappy, it was all about giving my scared self what she needed, if only in a story in my imagination. I'm imagining your Great Monster as Gossamer -
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gossamer_(Looney_Tunes)
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Gee, I have some extra cuddly toys---I must e-mail Crow and see if she wants one.
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