Got a good nibble, spoke with recruiter, with an interview to be scheduled early next week. Drug research, have to drive to the office, pay cut, but a good job I can do. Finishing up the application and references. I believe this will be my new job.
Dylan suggested that the distress I'm feeling is because for so long I had this structure, and I knew what to do when I walked in an OR, brought with me a wealth of experience and knowledge. And that is gone, leaving me vulnerable and adrift.
I have lost my clay. I am formless, floating.
Flames died. Sound died. Light died.ANGHAMMARAD.Anghammarad looked at his hands. There was nothing there except heat, furnace heat, blasting heat that nevertheless made the shapes of fingers.ANGHAMMARAD, a hollow voice repeated.“I Have Lost My Clay,” said the golem.YES, said Death, THAT IS STANDARD. YOU ARE DEAD. SMASHED. EXPLODED INTO A MILLION PIECES.“Then Who Is This Doing The Listening?”EVERYTHING THERE WAS ABOUT YOU THAT ISN'T CLAY.“Do You Have A Command For Me?” said the remains of Anghammarad, standing up.NOT NOW. YOU HAVE REACHED THE PLACE WHERE THERE ARE NO MORE ORDERS.“What Shall I Do?”I BELIEVE YOU HAVE FAILED TO UNDERSTAND MY LAST COMMENT.
T. Pratchett, Going Postal
7 comments:
You have something positive. That is good.
Like D says, difficult when you have had the same pattern for so long
gz,
It really is, but I still have all the parts of me that aren't the walls of my OR. I can do this, but it's terrifying.
Doing new things -- eek! But always good for the brain afterwards. I like to say that learning is always painful and always necessary. Sigh.
Sometimes a new, totally different job can be a great leap into the future.
I am a retired RN, went into Pharm research after many years in home health; got my certification and found it very enjoyable and very interesting. Good luck.
Cat,
Leaping sounds dangerous.
Sharon,
Oh, thank you for that. I do hope so.
when i left dental hygiene after working in the area for almost 20 years, one thing i hadn't counted on was moving from something i was comfortable with, good at, confident in, to something that was new and frightening. i think that one is used to feeling stupid and new in one's 20's. it's a little harder to swallow in one's 40's (or beyond). but with time, i found my footing. and you will too. i have all the faith.
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