Stop

I stopped drinking coke after two times feeling very ill and dizzy closely following the imbibing. Ending a persistent habit of three decades. I'd known the sugar water was bad for my teeth, my bones, the excess fat bad for my heart, acid reflux.

But.

But, it was energy and caffeine, convenient, available, easy. I'd cut down, only having the stuff at work, only one can a day at most. But getting myself to zero took immediate illness, twice. I am no longer tempted.

I thought it would only take the once for hot wings. That was a bad, bad night. hot sauce on the rebound, with power. But I was hungry at work today, a rep had brought in hot wings. I hesitated, but free food... Like a dog with an interesting thing on the floor, I put it in my mouth and swallowed.

I regret it. It's still down there, for now.

Resolutions, even strong self preservation instincts, weaken with hunger and exhaustion. Thus are habits made and broken.