I have not written. I cannot sit long. I am standing now, the laptop on the high counter, leaning against a barstool.
Almost a year ago, I had a little incident, wherein I was beaten up in order to restore breath and life. The subsequent pain has crawled around my body, in no small part emotional, omnipresent, to greater or lesser degree. I am heartily tired of it. I have chased it hard, with massage, chiropractors, and exercise when possible, heat, cold, rest, stretching, drugs. All at a time and sequentially. Nothing seems to help deeply, or for long. More migraines than I have had for a decade - but that may just be the hormonal changes of the mid 40's. At my wit's end, I am reaching out to a different modality. Not shots and surgery, this is too amorphous, too chronic for Western trauma, reactive medicine.
I have been dreaming about sticking needles into the current sore spots, so electric is the pain. This made me consider when I got an invite from a newly opening office with both massage, and acupuncture. Well, I began chiropractic to immense relief about 7 years ago , in another state, for exactly the same reason. An ad in the mail, when I was home nursing my spasming back. It turned my life around, without exaggeration. The chiropractors I have seen here are not up to the job. Some relief, but no progress, no deep improvement, bare maintenance.
Life has often quietly offered me answers to my problems. When I have been attentive and tried, I have found ease and friendship and the path through. When I ignore the whispered hints, I wind up in deep, sticky mud. Looking back, I am not sure if I missed an offer, or if I am only now ready to need it.
I'll let you know next year if this was the right choice. It does take a while to know. But the idea of being a pincushion is appealing right now, and that can't be right, unless it is right.
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Good luck with the acupuncture, zhoen, I hope it will be the solution you need.
Gute Besserung!
Sounds like exactly the sort of thing accupuncture might be able to deal with. Good luck!!
Thank you, all. Udge, had to look that one up. Will do. Dale, I take that as very good advice from a knowledgeable source. Just gotta make it through the week until my appt. sigh.
My wife goes regularly for acupuncture Rx- and swears by it...I hope it works for you, too.
Managing back pain is such an individual journey in my experience. I have a weak lower back (several slipped discs over the years, sacro-iliac problems). I have tried many solutions, orthodox and alternative. Finally I have found something that suits me in the alternative field. The problem will never be totally cured but for 99% of the time now my back is just fine.
Acupuncture sounds good. Go for it. Give it time. Be hopeful.
Your penultimate para raises a point I have often asked myself. Have I missed offers or was I not ready to hear them? Or both perhaps?
I've had very good results with acupuncture for a couple things Zhoen. And a friend with a rare eye disease (and his asthma drugs were increasing his risk of blindness at frightening speed) managed to get both asthmas and eye condition manageable with acupuncture. Hope you find someone really good. It can't be that bizarre to do - it's been used for so many thousands of years in other parts of the world.
Hope it helps you.
Oh, I have every confidence that this will, at very least, help. I once saw footage from a study, showing a dog being operated on, with only acupuncture for anesthetic. I'm just naturally wary, and I can hear my mother's voice calling it baloney. Defending my choices from derision, even now. Pathetic, but there it is.
Good luck with the acupuncture, Zhoen. I'm sure it will help.
If it appeals, you might also consider cranio-sacral therapy. It might be the perfect treatment for an injury like yours, since it not only treats physical problems with very, very gentle but surprisingly powerful touch, but also seeks to reach and release the emotional trauma often left behind by an accident or shock to the body and which, understandably, can last a long time and make it hard to recover from physical pain.
Warmest hugs. Take good care of yourself.
Oh zhoen, I do hope... Good luck!
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