The call came. I start on Monday. And will be paid rather better than before. It all feels a bit surreal and flat. Bubbling up immediately was all the gratitude for all the people who kept me from despair, who let me use them as references, all the friends I had to inconvenience. Immediately sent out my thanks, before letting any of it soak in. All along I've been thinking, I have to send cards and little unique gifts in thanks, but not until I know, not until I have income, just in case, just in case.
For I do not believe until I know. I don't believe. I know, or I don't know, or it is unknowable and I have to step forward anyway. The lesson of
Pooh. If the gods are willing, this will be my last job, and my path to a decent retirement. And... I think I'm going to really enjoy this.
I cleaned the laundry floor starting yesterday. It probably needs this more often than every three years or so.
15 comments:
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
And Zeppo really isn't that amazed, is he? He may be saying "Oh, no, does this mean you're gonna leave me???"
Cat,
You were right, of course, when I was struggling at the beginning of this gap. I still had to go through it for myself.
Zeppo will be fine, he has Dylan and Eleanor, and I'll be home every evening. It'll be fine, really.
... and breathe ....
good luck for Monday, new week and new beginnings x
Good luck with the new start!
Easy does it xx
Lovely to see Zeppo closely investigating what you are doing!!
The lesson of Pooh. Exactly. Thank you so much for this.
Wonderful news.
So pleased for you!
Be very happy - and try not to frighten Zeppo like that!
Congratulations - hope it's a really good move for you! xx
kj,
Breathing. It really does feel like I've been half holding my breath all this time.
gz,
He's been coming up closer when we are in chairs, not quite settling, laps are still too much for him, but it's clear he likes us and wants to be closer.
am,
A guiding spirit bear.
Sabine,
We've all been through hard times, with no guarantees of light. Still, here we are.
Joan,
Thank you, always nice to know another Joan.
RR,
I'll try not to. He is a very easy cat to startle, but he's occasionally nerveless so we know he has it in him.
Jean,
I figure 6-10 years and a secure retirement. The job itself, well, I've done all kinds of jobs, this is one more.
Gentle,
Nearly missed you there, thank you. Life goes on, and I'm just so grateful to have this chance.
I'm doing a happy jig for you (with a pint in my hand, of course). They are lucky to have you, dear Z!
Big exhale... And inhale with gratitude. Blessings for your new beginning.
Rou,
I'll do my best.
Nimble,
So nice to breathe again.
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