Kilter is off. Body being weird. My preoccupation with the end of periods has become completely unbalanced. Marked changes, not just misplaced hope.
I knew, when first told that my period meant I could have children that I did not want that at all. Have never wavered on that, despite momentary curiosity - which is not the same. Knew. Now that the option is nearly run, all I feel is relief. More when I have confirmation. Forty one years is enough.
Of course, there have been advantages. Good for the bones, the blood pressure, skin and connective tissue health. Without the hormones, well, there will be drying and sagging and brittleness. Have started the yoga I learned years ago. Just a few minutes of it to start. Feels really good, although I am stiff and shaky. Intertubes wonderful for a refresher.
March wind, no rain, only harsh and raw. Idling and vague. The garden and front yard sulk at me.
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hah! just yesterday i was telling someone that i have only been WAITING for menopause since i was thirteen. i never needed a working reproductive system, and i hope against hope that this last box of tampons will be THE last box.
agreed. zero interest in procreating. funny that, people always assumed that i feared pregnancy. my answer was that i'd welcome THAT particular experience; it's what came after that horrified me - bringing that utterly dependent being home and becoming a slave for years.
i've been doing 15 minutes of sun salutation every night (not nearly long enough, i know, and odd to do it at night, i also know) but it's done wonders for my inflexible bod and helps me sleep.
onward into new adventures, zhoen!
There's great freedom post-menopause. Lots to look forward to!
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flask,
I've been waiting since I was 10.
PC,
I actually was fascinated by the process, although I think I'd've handled it badly, or at least miserably.
RR,
Yearning for it, oh, yes. But not this time, came down on me like a hod of bricks.
Stretch well. There is so much to experience with moving the body even a little bit.
As for periods, I think we need an off switch.
Nimble,
An off switch. Ideal.
The human reproductive system seems to me over-active, with a huge amount of redundancy; I too am fed up with the whole messy, pointless business. Though I'm not holding my breath, googling round about it one hears of women still having periods and occasionally even babies (naturally, not with fertility treatments) late into their fifties, and I've yet to know a hot flush.
Not that I want to depress you or anything.
Yoga leaves me feeling like a wrung out rag, much more exhausted than aerobic exercise does. But I know it does me good overall, suppleness and balance are so important.
Lucy,
Oh, I know about it possibly running years yet. And the earlier it starts, the later it goes. I started very young, so I know I could go very old. And it does depress me. But I seem to be having symptoms, and 51 is the most likely age.
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