Variable
Sadly, I've been watching a fair amount of crap tv, as is my wont when I am tired and it's hot. What Not To Wear has been common, the US version, which is not as kind as the Trinny & Suzannah series. Although they have gotten better. I can only defend this as my admitted voyeurism, and my defensible interest in costume as a social medium and history. Offered 5K to get a new set of clothes would be nice, I know I have decent taste when I have enough to spend. Why I miss Boston and Filene's Basement so much. Last year's clothes - for cheap, which works when one choses classic. I don't bother here because no one else dresses well anyway, and my social life is past. I throw on clothes in the morning, change into scrubs, change back, get home, get into pjs.
I could give up my clothes to exchange them for better ones, sure. But I would not get un-sensible shoes. No high heels, not even a little bit. Not about to finish ruining my born-bad feet. I've kept them in decent shape by always giving them good, solid, flat, wide toed, supportive shoes. This is our truce, and I will keep my part of it. They have never formed corns or bunions, and after some serious arch support, they have been cooperative.
No more cutting of my hair, either. Takes too long to grow back enough to pull back enough to keep it under my cap at work. Too short, and it creeps out over my ears, making me look like a mad bird. I've had it very short, I've had it permed and dyed, and I'm not doing any of that again. I like it long, it pleases me, and that is that.
Had a moment of epiphany looking at the mirror, and thinking about the WNTW focus on making their vict... guests feel "pretty" and "feminine." I'm just not interested in that. I want to look good, a bit elegant, but not really girly. Thoughts trundled on that gender is not just one thing. There is the body, and the sense of one's gender, orientation, and social gender. I'm definitely a woman physically, and have never wanted to be male physically, heterosexual with only a whiff of curiosity to my own sex - never enough to act on, but with a social gender androgyny. Maybe it was partly to do with only having brothers. But I have always been right in the middle on what girls vs boys are supposed to like and dislike. Hate pastels, especially pinks, but I did ballet. Liked climbing trees, but not rough play. I like theatrical make-up, but can't be bothered day to day.
And I think most people would rate themselves differently on those different aspects of their gender identity. From full feminine to full masculine, or right in the middle on each one, The research really doesn't know what normal is, has not been thorough about teasing out the individual variables, so to condemn any manifestation is idiotic.
Genetic variation, what every species needs.
I could give up my clothes to exchange them for better ones, sure. But I would not get un-sensible shoes. No high heels, not even a little bit. Not about to finish ruining my born-bad feet. I've kept them in decent shape by always giving them good, solid, flat, wide toed, supportive shoes. This is our truce, and I will keep my part of it. They have never formed corns or bunions, and after some serious arch support, they have been cooperative.
No more cutting of my hair, either. Takes too long to grow back enough to pull back enough to keep it under my cap at work. Too short, and it creeps out over my ears, making me look like a mad bird. I've had it very short, I've had it permed and dyed, and I'm not doing any of that again. I like it long, it pleases me, and that is that.
Had a moment of epiphany looking at the mirror, and thinking about the WNTW focus on making their vict... guests feel "pretty" and "feminine." I'm just not interested in that. I want to look good, a bit elegant, but not really girly. Thoughts trundled on that gender is not just one thing. There is the body, and the sense of one's gender, orientation, and social gender. I'm definitely a woman physically, and have never wanted to be male physically, heterosexual with only a whiff of curiosity to my own sex - never enough to act on, but with a social gender androgyny. Maybe it was partly to do with only having brothers. But I have always been right in the middle on what girls vs boys are supposed to like and dislike. Hate pastels, especially pinks, but I did ballet. Liked climbing trees, but not rough play. I like theatrical make-up, but can't be bothered day to day.
And I think most people would rate themselves differently on those different aspects of their gender identity. From full feminine to full masculine, or right in the middle on each one, The research really doesn't know what normal is, has not been thorough about teasing out the individual variables, so to condemn any manifestation is idiotic.
Genetic variation, what every species needs.
Labels: gender
Posted by Zhoen on Saturday, July 30, 2011
1 comments:
Genetic variation indeed. There is a part of the he who is me that would enjoy being re-wardrobed. For the most part, however, I am content with my look, or lack thereof.
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