I want to cry and give up and throw all this away because of a third idiot this week. After having gone through this twice earlier. The last one made sure I knew he had the last word by sending an even more insulting email by leaving it on the comments and then deleting it, knowing I would get it, but you wouldn't hear that he called me "crass" for shining the light on his attitude. And of course, it's all my fault, for being "petty".
Yup, defending my own patch is petty and crass. Expecting mere silence from a stranger who just shows up, uncritically reads the bits he understands, then attacks me, is silly. Not letting him hide his persistent defense of his mean words... ah, well, shame on me.
This makes me crazy. This has to stop.
Leave me alone, leave me alone, leave me alone....
This blog will either be moving, or going away. I can't do this, my stomach hurts, I'm crying. I don't need readers, I don't make money here, there are other patches. This one smells bad.
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I'm so sorry some idiot's comments have upset you so much...
If you decide to move, maybe you'd consider letting some of your readers who enjoy your blog know the new "address"?
Oh Zhoen, I'm so sorry, what a mess.
If you do move, and if you do still want me as a reader, please e-mail me - or just e-mail me anyway if you want to. I'll put my e-mail in a second comment then delete it a bit later, for obvious reasons I don't want to leave my e-mail address lying around.
I'm clearing out for a bit, I feel miserable and uncertain about this whole blogging business. I'll never forget how kind and supportive and lovely you were when we had difficult times with Mol, and other times when I felt rotten and stupid about myself... I hate it things can go so sour.
Enough, I'm crying now.
oh, z: ignore the idiots (well, i know, that's easy for me to say)
It never occurred to me that he hadn't followed the logic and implication of his own statement on masculine vs. feminine where it related to your comment that he quoted.
Even more unfortunate, what followed. So sorry.
I tried turning off the comments for awhile. It changed everything. I wrote for myself, but in the end, I missed the feedback and turned them on again. An interesting experiment, though.
Many blogs I read get dozens and dozens of idiotic commentary each and every day. Mostly folks looking for drama/arguments. Ignore. Persist. We love you.
Aw Sweetie (wink), Blackenedboy is a young, clueless punk who seems to believe that everyone should hang on his every word, even when he's reciting in excruciating detail what he had for breakfast. Don't empower him. I'm a lurker who enjoys reading your blog.
Don't let the bastards grind you down.
But...if this isn't bringing you joy anymore, remember us all fondly and move on.
Ach, Zhoen, what a damned shame that some ignorant little shite has done this to you. I hope you will continue in some way, you might not need readers but we do need you. A suggestion: you can password-protect your blog, so that it can only be read by people to whom you explicitly grant permission. That would be a way to continue this in (hopefully) peace in quiet.
Thank you. I had a bad night, and decided to hang tough. Thank you all.
Z. You do what you have to do. But know this, I would miss your words, thoughts and insights. Leave me bread crumb trail, if you decide to set up elsewhere.
PAX.
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